Emotions

Emotions, what are emotions. Some define emotions as feelings, aren't feelings physical? The very definition of feeling is experiencing a physical sensation for example feeling cold or pain. A physical input is at play. Do emotions stem from our minds? Are we meant to be in charge of our emotions or should we let them fester on their own? When something good happens to you you experience happiness, an elated state of mind you can almost feel it physically even. Same goes for sadness, when you are sad your mind feels foggy, the body feels heavy. Sometimes you may even feel something in your chest, like your heart is plummeting or shattering. Your mind may even feel slower, unable to process any thoughts, because of an emotion. I am trying to bring it a little into perspective how emotions affect us, to me it is scary. Emotional wellbeing cannot be overstated, I remember a small period in my life which I can only describe as grey, like a cloudy, overcast day. The way the grey of the sky seems to dullen every other colour. It was a time dominated by confusion and sadness. I remember it feeling almost depressive living in a cycle of waking up and feeling terrible every day. You become so used to an emotional state that everything else seems non-existent. Your present state's influence makes it impossible to see anything but now. You cannot seem to envision a future because it becomes traumatizing, you can only see this cloudiness going on and on on and on. You cannot view your life retrospectively because even your happiest memories seem negligible in comparison to this insurmountable confusion and sadness. It's a devastating feeling, losing perspective of everything else but this terrible feeling. Operating almost solely on autopilot except for brief moments of release. In my case it was not physically observable but it felt like a chronic illness. The moment of came and I did not realize it I just was suddenly okay. It scares me to this day that even after deep thinking I still cannot put down a concrete reason as to why I was 'down bad'. Having minimal control on your emotions is scary, because these emotions pin you down and reign. Your body becomes a vessel of expression for them. Take for example how when anger controls you your veins pop your heart pumps faster and in that moment you act on adrenaline, like an animal. When you let emotions dictate actions or even action dictate emotion it becomes almost impossible to employ rationale. A level of control over emotions especially strong ones is needed. I personally feel like nowadays there is emphasis on the suppression or total stifling of feelings instead of processing. It's everywhere, a lot of times I've seen people sweep clear emotion under the rug instead of focusing on fully processing and understanding them. Life is art and emotion is the color that gives the canvas vibrancy and uniqueness. Let the world see your art.