nostalgia
I had not even completed my bereavement and it was time for yet another funeral, reflection is like viewing time in all its dimensions. You see past present and future all at once due to the cyclic nature of our behavior and variables. It's called self-sabotage when you know what it takes to make a beneficial change to your life and choose to sit complacent, but is it really sabotage or awareness? It's typical advice to exceed or push your limits, that is growth in its most basic description in my opinion but to exceed your limits you must first become aware of them. You must first come to terms with the ugly picture you see in that mirror and you must stare at it intently and more importantly objectively. It's almost as if you must become a stranger to return to yourself. I had not even finished coming to terms with the demise of my childhood. That charismatic confident young boy teeming with curiosity and excitement, the world he thrived in no longer exists. It came dow...
