Freefall
I remember last time, how little expectations I had and how that made the occasion all the more grandiose. It was a lovely coincidence made even better by the surprise I got. You made sure I felt celebrated even though I was not meeting your expected hallmark of excellence. Looking back I'm filled with melancholy. Five years have now gone by and I am met by the same coincidence but under vastly different circumstances. You are still here and for that I am grateful. You are still here despite my lack of achievement, despite the pain you bore because of my insolence and naivety. It makes me sad to think of all the times you have had to overcome bitterness and resentment. Every time you have had to put aside what you were feeling to do what needed to be done. When we reflect together I am astounded by how much you have gone through alone. I blame my juvenile nature for not being able to even fathom how I can atone for your struggle. I hope some day you will be able to see all the jo...
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